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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 16:13

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My family never makes their pension either.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why do I randomly start sweating a lot in public (while waiting in line, in a new class, etc.) then start sweating more because I’m embarrassed that I’m sweating so much? Is this social anxiety?

I will be 64.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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Ive learnt so much.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Especially a lifetime of it.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I waited trembling.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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He knew the spot.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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I was scared of men, in general

I said to her

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I never cut or harmed myself..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One cannot live in the past .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

It was going to be , some day.

We all went to grammer schools

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

So, i spoilt her more .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was in good health!

I could never make a relationship work though!

She found it foreign!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So whats the point in blame.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But, we were locked up after school.

I have no regrets .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Why did i forgive my father ?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Would this be the day?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Comes on , in middle age.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I don,t even have a pension.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was 9 years of age.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My life is so biszare .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As i do to all so called friends.?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I write beautiful poetry .

All the time i was locked up.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But ive been too sick for many years..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

When she asked me how she looked .

I was very sick at this time too.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She loved him until the end.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

This is soul school!.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Im still living with it.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She married twice! .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We were not on the streets..

I think the readers, may guess!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

What did i know ?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was seconnd youngest,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She wouldn,t have been !

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Who then, do I blame.?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But it wasn’t much.

(And it was in our own minds.)

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Put me off passion for life!!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

And i lived it daily.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.